context, context, context

[ringsandcoffee]

In the car earlier, I heard a song on Air 1 that made my ears perk up. First, it sounded R&B-ish, which you don't often hear on that station. (Air 1 is a Christian station that calls itself "the postive alternative" and the genres range from gag-me-slow to alternative to rock to hip-hop.) Then the lyrics sort of made me raise an eyebrow. A few seconds later, I thought differently. Towards the end, I envisioned SYTYCD choreographing a routine to the song. So, inside I went to look up the lyrics.

Kerrie Roberts - "Maybe I'm Afraid"
From the album Kerrie Roberts

There's no way I can hide
It's written on my face
All these complications

Maybe I'm afraid
To open up and let You in
Behind the curtain
Maybe I'm afraid
Of the questions
That I know You'd raise
What I thought was certain
Maybe I'm afraid
Of the mess that it's sure to make
And all I tried to simplify and organize
But I just can't deny

(Chorus)
That there's no way
I can hide
It's written on my face
And all these complications
Fumblin' with my equations
Now they crumble to the ground
With everything I thought
To be without Your help
Cause if I let You in
I'll never be the same
So I try to escape
Maybe I'm afraid

Maybe I'm afraid
To let it go and just accept
That love has spoken
Maybe I'm afraid
Of the way that I know You'll fix
Everything that's broken
Maybe I'm afraid
'Cause I don't know who You are
But the more I get from You
The more I lose
So what am I holding onto

Chorus

Afraid I'll be complete
It's just so weak in Your hands
Maybe I'm afraid
Afraid that it won't last
I'll only be half without You

Maybe I'm afraid
To let You change my heart
With all it's hiding
Maybe I'm afraid
That I just might fall apart
Unless Your beside me

Chorus

Maybe I'm afraid

A few years back, someone on the internet said Christian music is full of vague or veiled sexual references. (Hooray for internet honesty!) Others responded by saying it's what you believe in and/or how you were raised that determine how one interprets the lyrics. I can see how each came to their conclusions. On the surface, it seems like a song about two people in a relationship. To someone who knows Jesus as their savior, it shows how people want to be in control and have trouble giving their lives to Him, even though they know it's better to do so.

The song, it made my brain churn.

Comments

[sewcute.livejournal.com]

There is one song that I like (all I listen to is Christian music) that I thought was about a relationship between a guy and a girl, but I come to find out it was about an abortion. pretty moving when you actually know the background!

I don't like Air1 as much as Klove, Air1 plays harder stuff that Klove.

[ringsandcoffee.livejournal.com]

Is it "Lucy" by Skillet? They had a little blurb about that song before they played it for the first time. It makes me teary when I hear it.

I first listened to Klove, but switched to Air1 when I moved to AZ. I prefer the harder stuff. :) They play some of the same songs.