Decisions

Three days subbing at my old school this week pushed me towards the "leave teaching altogether" side of the spectrum. Monday and Tuesday were ok, but Thursday brought several of the old frustrations back. I don't know if it was simply end-of-week behavior or not. Another teacher said her class was about the same. Ok, so they talk a lot; it was when I tried to teach that made me bang my head against the wall. You think a concept simple enough, especially since it's day 2 or 3 of the skill. Getting blank stares in response to my questions, then completely wrong answers, was like deja vu. Imagine having a bad day where several things go wrong. Multiply that by nearly every day, and you get a sense of what drove me to resign. Lessons going poorly, begging kids to pay attention, teaching a skill 40 times, to mention nothing of the nightmarish junk coming from admin all the time. Going to work shouldn't make you feel like a failure. 10-year-olds shouldn't be arguing with you over things as simple as (I can't remember what specifically, but) me stating a fact and the kids goes "No it's not!" What, so you're calling me a liar?

I want to bake a cake, and frost it. Maybe I will. Going to get my hair cut later...money I really shouldn't be spending but it's starting to look silly.