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I hate being sick. I can't figure out if meing sick is affecting my mood, or if it's work that's making me depressed. Despite feeling crappy, I'm actually being productive around the apt. In the back of my mind lurks the school work I also need to do. Sigh

Brandi Carlile is on the rebroadcast of APHC, and now I want to buy more of her songs. Her voice is amazing. I don't know how she isn't more known.

I sure hope I feel better by Monday since the sub situation SUCKS this year.

Last night Nicole and I went to dinner. (Yum, Pita Jungle!) I'm going to miss her, since she's moving back to Dallas and then probably Massachussetts. We chatted about dating, and she commented basically how I'm a great person who anyone would like. Not in those exact words but it was the same gist. It got me thinking, along with a video someone posted on FB this morning, about appearances. I'm never completely thrilled with what I see in the mirror, but I'm not disgusted with it either. I think Nicole is pretty; I usually think everyone else is better looking than me. Why do I feel this way? My brain will usually remind me that looks aren't everything, and beauty that the media portrays is far from reality. Lack of interest from men I actually know, who know me for more than just my appearance, doesn't exactly help the self-esteem. I've tried a couple dating sites, but I'm too chicken to meet people, heck even to talk to them. I met a couple, and those fizzled out.

I don't even know what my point is. Just getting thoughts in words, or trying to.

I can't embed the video, so here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iYhCn0jf46U