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Apr. 30th, 2011 03:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ringsandcoffeeThis is where I state my somewhat selfish desires:
to stay in Arizona - preferably in my current apartment
to stay in the area if I do have to move
to have 24/7 internet access
a job I like and feel good at
a job that pays about what I make now (which is enough for me to live alone and not struggle. if I had to take on a car payment, might be a challenge)
for the cute Safeway guy to follow me out to my car and ask for my number
for the guts to make a dating site profile
for a guy I actually know to notice me
to be able to bake stuff for others in my spare time
to travel to a brand new place once a year
Then I think about any or all of the following:
people halfway around the world who are in fear of their lives on a daily basis
people who can't afford to feed their kids
victims of the recent tornados
don't even want to think about the earthquakes
why do I deserve to have it easy/easier than others?
I searh Google every few days when I get job ideas. Baking, catering, house parents, etc. I feel unqualified for EVERYTHING. I know it's not true, but job listings tend to depress me more than encourage me. I'm still satisfied with my decision to resign, but I can't stay in this state of "I'll find something later" for much longer. Most of my jobs have fallen into my lap. I don't know how to go searching. I'm not helpless, but scared, or in denial.
to stay in Arizona - preferably in my current apartment
to stay in the area if I do have to move
to have 24/7 internet access
a job I like and feel good at
a job that pays about what I make now (which is enough for me to live alone and not struggle. if I had to take on a car payment, might be a challenge)
for the cute Safeway guy to follow me out to my car and ask for my number
for a guy I actually know to notice me
to be able to bake stuff for others in my spare time
to travel to a brand new place once a year
Then I think about any or all of the following:
people halfway around the world who are in fear of their lives on a daily basis
people who can't afford to feed their kids
victims of the recent tornados
don't even want to think about the earthquakes
why do I deserve to have it easy/easier than others?
I searh Google every few days when I get job ideas. Baking, catering, house parents, etc. I feel unqualified for EVERYTHING. I know it's not true, but job listings tend to depress me more than encourage me. I'm still satisfied with my decision to resign, but I can't stay in this state of "I'll find something later" for much longer. Most of my jobs have fallen into my lap. I don't know how to go searching. I'm not helpless, but scared, or in denial.
