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This morning, my class came in. I checked homework and agendas, they were eating breakfast. Breakfast was over, they were supposed to be doing mornign work or reading a book, but several were playing with stickers or whatever. I gave them a stern reminder of responsibilities. The, sort of overwhelmed with a bunch of things, I sat down at my desk and cried. My kids started to notice and all got silent. I told them I wasn't mad at them, that sometimes it seems like everything is too much and you just can't take it. The day had its downs and ups after that, and a few times I barked out things I used to say last year. Then I remembered that I DON'T want to be like I was last year, and I've made it this far. It's really not that bad, it can be, has been worse in the past. Just...don't know if I'll stay in the district next year.